The Gay Hypocrite

I was told I should grow up
And do what is not right
The next day he fucks the friend
And I’m wondering why I’m left out

This lifestyle is a cryptic one
I have not even penetrated yet I imagine
I think its pretty blunt to me
I am not allowed

It seems unusual I asked to know this
I have every right to know
I knew it would happen
It would hurt me in the end

But this is life and this is what I needed
The confirmation to rest at peace
And it is very blatant
And necessary

Everyone is forgiven in my search of self
They shall hold no forebearing
No angst or bitterness
It is all for myself to absorb

And I am so apologetic